Currently Loving: Bradley James, M79 and The Scottish Falsetto Sock Puppet Theatre
"I've been having these... weird thoughts lately."
(First words in Kingdom Hearts video game)
To call them dreams would be a lie and to call them thoughts would suggest I understood why they were in my head, but for some reason whenever I let it slip my mind wanders back to the same scene.
In this scene I betray someone. I don't know who he is, and his face changes every time I go back there. His horror struck expression doesn't though.
We can be in different places, though the most common is a dark stage. There are three of us, standing in a triangle; me and two boys. There seems to have been a standoff and it appears we have won. Two on one, we have the other boy cornered. But then he smiles and I turn.
I tell the boy I'm sorry, using his name, which also changes a lot. Jed, Brian, Arthur, doesn't matter. This part's always the same; the apology.
I don't mean it. In this particular situation, I show no remorse nor mercy. Sometimes it's a gun at his head, others a long blade to the throat. Either way the boy I once helped now has a lethal weapon pointed at him.
I've never seen what happens next save once, when I actually fired a shot. Time slowed down and I saw him being blasted off his feet. We were at school in that version. I think it's the fact now I've seen it so many times I distract my mind by asking myself why I'm even watching this happen.
And every time it draws a blank. I haven't seen this moment in any recent TV, films or books. I certainly don't wish I could shoot anyone and I usually know in my head (in my head o_O) that the real person I should be shooting is the boy with the sudden smile who we appeared to overpower.
But it won't go away. Truth be told it's just plain WEIRD... but what more do you expect of me?
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